Disappointment

A couple of weeks ago I wrote a new song — for a song contest. It was a spur of the moment thing, as I’d known about the contest for several months and originally decided not to participate. Then I got another Email about it that Friday and thought: “What the heck? Give it a try!” It took some reworking over the weekend, but by Monday I was pleased with the results. I called the studio and he actually had time for me, so we recorded it and I managed to enter the contest — all on the last possible day. This morning I got the news that my song was not accepted for the next qualifying round. Oh, well.

I take this disappointment as a reminder that not everything will go my way. Sometimes I get a bit light-headed with all the good things that happen to me. This brought me back down to earth. That’s a good lesson in humility, which I certainly can use on occasion. And it also encourages me to proceed with care and not assume that I can completely do as I please, although I do have a lot of leeway.

On the brighter side, it’s one less thing I have to worry about. There is a lot going on right now. I’m preparing to go away tomorrow — preparations are still restricted to my head. It’s slow moving this morning! In two weeks I’m doing a concert. It’s the first concert that someone asked me to do! Up until now, I’ve always had to organize concerts on my own. There’s still a lot of rehearsing to do.

In the fall, I would like to go home for a week. If I had moved to the next round of the contest, my plans for the trip to the States would have been jeopardized. So now it looks good. Yes, it’s a clear case of: I can’t have and do everything. Hopeless optimist that I am, I tend to think I can. Then tend to run myself ragged.

This morning it is clear: I need to maintain my humility. And… there’s always a brighter side!