Noticeable Change

May 1, 2008 at 12:20 pm 2 comments

Recently I hooked up with some spiritual, positive-thinking people, and feel a refreshing wave of hope and humanity returning to my life – and that, despite the sad world situation. It has often bothered me that I react with anger over stupid situations, and more often than not make a fool of myself. In the process, there is often a bad aftertaste on both sides. Most of the time, it has to do with being in a bad mood, feeling sorry for myself, or oh, so misunderstood. Then I tend to jump to conclusions, and more often than not, attack some innocent bystander verbally with my frustration.

Yesterday was different. I’d just come out from my singing lesson, and there was a huge truck parked behind my car, so I couldn’t leave the parking space. Feeling calm and optimistic, I looked at the driver’s seat – empty. Then I went around to the back and saw two guys unloading stuff. In a – get a load of this!! – friendly voice, I simply asked if they were going to be there for a long time, because they were blocking my car. One guy said, yes, but they could move the truck. I started to go back to my car, then I said, “Well, if you’re not going to be too much longer, I could quickly run to the store and let you finish what you’re doing.” The other guy said, “No, I’ll move the truck. It’s going to take us a while longer.” So he moved the truck back, I got out of the parking space, and drove by with a friendly wave.

Afterwards I felt a rush of — happiness through cooperation. I don’t know what else to call it. Sometimes I am so stuck in my world and feel like everyone is out to get me, especially when confronted with an unexpected obstacle. On the other hand, I so admire people who stay calm and simply cope with a situation, not assuming the worst. The realization that we are all in this together, that they were just doing their work, and that we can solve little and big problems with friendly, considerate communication is clear enough, just sometimes the stress of daily life blinds me to that.

Looked at from a different, more generous perspective, such situations are opportunities to connect, to celebrate our common humanity and utilize our wonderful gift of being human: We have the ability to think before we speak, and to see things in a positive way. We can be open and assume the best instead of the worst. I don’t mean to make such a big deal of this, but for me it is. I really prefer when that better part of me shines through. That does indeed have an effect. All of us left the interaction in a good way, so we were more inclined to be kind and friendly to the next person we met. Like a pebble tossed into a lake…


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  • 1. SanityFound  |  May 2, 2008 at 8:00 pm

    I think one of our greatest problems is that of insecurity, it is also one of the reasons that we went through what we did. Our insecurity makes us feel a warped sense of the world and the people in it, a simple comment would shatter us for days if not months on end, simple things like getting someone to move out of the way is a big mission often resulting in anger. Am so so proud of you and I mean that in the best sense, I know what it took to get that guy to move also know that true elation of feeling connected, like the world is connected and a taste of the bigger picture. One step at a time, there are more of us out there than one could even begin to imagine! 😀

  • 2. diaryofarecoveredbulimic  |  May 2, 2008 at 9:15 pm

    Exactly – it’s that insecurity! Because when we’re all connected and in this together, we just don’t fly off the handle at the slightest provocation. It’s a nice space to be in, this connectedness.


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