Spring wake-up efforts

May 6, 2008 at 7:02 am 4 comments

After a workout at the gym yesterday, I felt much better. I need to work out regularly. It helps me stay in shape, keeps me strong and in a better mood, prevents osteoporosis and weight gain. (Since passing 40, I’ve noticed a tendency to gain weight more easily if I don’t get enough exercise.) Sounds like a good deal to me! Okay, I’m motivated! (It’s kind of hard, because I’ve just never been the type that wants to do something all the time, though it does me good. But once I’m there, I enjoy it!) It just occurred to me that this recent slide into darkness coincided with my reduction in activity. I’m sure it’s connected. So if you’re feeling down, when’s the last time you moved that body?

But before I went to the gym, I picked two goddess cards – two because two made themselves noticeable. That does happen on occasion. (The deck is by Doreen Virtue, in case anyone is curious.) Who did I pick? First Sarasvati, then Oonagh beckoned. They were both appropriate. (The descriptions are my rough translation from German.)

Sarasvati is a Hindu goddess of the fine arts. Her message is: “You are a boundless being. If you perceive limits – be they temporal, financial or otherwise – that is only your perception, because you are focussed on the material world. You can remove these boundaries by changing your focus. Music is of major importance for the expression of non-materialistic ideals and energy. It helps us move beyond the limits of thinking and existence. Surround yourself with music and let it stimulate new ideas and awaken your creativity. Flow with the music and allow yourself to experiment. Enjoy your boundlessness.” Her advice is to sing, dance, be creative, and/or make music.

Oonagh is a Celtic goddess of lightness/ease. Her message is: “To really be involved in a relationship/project is a long-term commitment, which one should not enter upon lightly. It is so important to me what happens to my planet and loved ones that I will stick by them no matter what. That is not always easy, but it is the only way I can be sure that everything will be resolved and heal. I listen to my heart. I show my loved ones how much they mean to me. I do something to keep matters moving. Don’t worry about other people’s opinions – you profit by pursuing your main goals. You will feel good when you create time and space for matters of the heart. Do what you need to do, and do it with your whole heart. And remember, there is no competition for the true purpose in life, so you don’t have to worry, hurry, or put pressure on yourself.” She says everything will happen in good time. Nor should I take any drastic measures. One step at a time, consistently moving forward, is the best way to go. Ease gently into your new life, don’t be in a rush.

I bet both cards are appropriate for others besides me today, and stumbling upon them here and now is very close to picking them. That’s why I’m sharing them.

I’m following Sarasvati’s advice and surrounding myself in music. This is one magical song. I was 15 when it came out. It was one of the few times I felt understood. I don’t think it needs more comment.


Hide in Your Shell (Supertramp)

Hide in your shell cause the world is out to bleed you for a ride
What will you gain making your life a little longer?
Heaven or hell, was the journey cold that gave you eyes of steel?
Sheltered behind painting your mind and playing joker

Too frightening to listen to a stranger
Too beautiful to put your pride in danger
You’re waiting for someone to understand you
But you’ve got demons in your closet
And you’re screaming out to stop it
Saying life’s begun to cheat you
Friends are out to beat you
Grab on to what you can scramble for

Don’t let the tears linger on inside now
Cause it’s sure time you gained control
If I can help you, if I can help you
If I can help you, just let me know
Well, let me show you the nearest signpost
To get your heart back and on the road
If I can help you, if I can help you
If I can help you, just let me know.

All through the night as you lie awake and hold yourself so tight
What do you need, a second-hand movie-star to tend you?
I as a boy, I believed the saying the cure for pain was love
How would it be if you could see the world through my eyes?

Too frightening- the fire’s becoming colder
Too beautiful- to think you’re getting older
You’re waiting for someone to bring an answer.
But what you see is just an illusion
You’re surrounded by confusion
Saying life’s begun to cheat you
Friends are out to beat you
Grab on to what you can scramble for

Don’t let the tears…
… just let me know
I wanna know…
I wanna know you…
Well let me know you
I wanna feel you
I wanna touch you
Please let me near you
Can you hear what I’m saying?
Well I’m hoping, I’m dreaming, I’m praying
I know what you’re thinking
See what you’re seeing
Never ever let yourself go
Hold yourself down, hold yourself down
Why did you hold yourself down?

Why don’t you listen, you can
Trust me,
There is a place I know the way to
A place there is no need to feel you
Feel that you’re all alone
Hear me
I know exactly what you’re feeling
Cause all your troubles are within you
Please begin to see that I’m just bleeding to
Love me, love you
Loving is the way to
Help me, help you
– why must we be so cool, oh so cool?
Oh, we’re such damn fools…


Strangely enough, this song appeared in the middle of the list of Supertramp songs. So, I thought it wanted to be heard. Actually, it was the version with Luciano Pavarotti singing, but I took this one, because I wanted to hear Freddie singing. I’m sure I’ve heard it before, but I never really paid attention to the lyrics.

Too much love will kill you (Queen)

I’m just the pieces of the man I used to be
Too many bitter tears are raining down on me
I’m far away from home
And I’ve been facing this alone
For much too long
I feel like no one ever told the truth to me
About growing up and what a struggle it would be
In my tangled state of mind
I’ve been looking back to find
Where I went wrong

Too much love will kill you
If you cant make up your mind
Torn between the lover
And the love you leave behind
You’re headed for disaster
cause you never read the signs
Too much love will kill you
Every time

I’m just the shadow of the man I used to be
And it seems like there’s no way out of this for me
I used to bring you sunshine
Now all I ever do is bring you down
How would it be if you were standing in my shoes
Cant you see that its impossible to choose
No there’s no making sense of it
Every way I go I’m bound to lose

Too much love will kill you
Just as sure as none at all
It’ll drain the power that’s in you
Make you plead and scream and crawl
And the pain will make you crazy
You’re the victim of your crime
Too much love will kill you
Every time

Too much love will kill you
It’ll make your life a lie
Yes, too much love will kill you
And you wont understand why
You’d give your life, you’d sell your soul
But here it comes again
Too much love will kill you
In the end…
In the end.

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Obsessing, prophetic winks and book recommendations I wish

4 Comments Add your own

  • 1. SanityFound  |  May 6, 2008 at 8:39 am

    These goddess cards sound interesting 🙂 Might have to get my hands on some myself lol – fab songs, beautifully put

  • 2. diaryofarecoveredbulimic  |  May 6, 2008 at 4:14 pm

    Yes, I highly recommend! I think you’d have a lot of fun with them!

  • 3. jonathan  |  May 7, 2008 at 1:34 am

    nice songs.. 😉
    very interesting..

  • 4. diaryofarecoveredbulimic  |  May 7, 2008 at 5:55 am

    Glad you like them!


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