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Dreamy reality

Several days ago I had a long, complicated dream. If I hadn’t been so tired, I would have tried to write it down. It was like a movie. In the meantime, I’ve forgotten the content, but the message has remained.

The strange thing about the dream was, that I didn’t like how things developed and this time I was able to go back and start over again. The various scenes and interactions changed. However… the end results were the same! I found that quite interesting.

When I woke up, I thought about it some more and then it occurred to me: that is destiny. Even if you change things or do things differently, your fate will prevail. That is a comfort. Somehow I don’t feel so bad about mistakes and wrong decisions, which are, after all, rather subjective definitions. It is important that I remain active and take steps, but then I let go and accept whatever the universe delivers.

This reminds me of an experience I had in March. At the seminar we did a “dream journey” meditation and were led back to the time before birth, and then back again to the present. What struck me during that meditation was the realization that everything that had happened was part of my life. It belonged to me, to my own special, personal biography.

Before the meditation I had some reservations. I dreaded going back to the really sad and painful chapters. But when I got there, it wasn’t awful at all. I simply took note of all the experiences which contributed to who and what I am today.

I like that approach! It’s all part of me, belongs to me, and that’s it. Once again I am reminded to be conscientious, but to not take myself all too seriously. I do what I do and leave the rest up to God and the universe. That’s enough! Yippie!


June 1, 2010 at 9:21 am Leave a comment

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