About Me

I am Martha M., a recovered bulimic. I don’t really like to think of myself in these terms, but the disease has uniquely colored my life whether I like it or not. This fall it will be 20 years that I am recovered. For several years, I didn’t think about it much, as I was busy getting on with my life. Yet the moments of gratitude occur even now on an almost daily basis. I am eternally grateful to be free of it. 

I am a woman who always had dreams, but it took a while to blossom. Coming from a background of being “nice” and trying to meet everyone else’s needs, it has taken quite a long time to figure out what my needs are, let alone try to satisfy them. It is a learning process. The other day I laughed when it occurred to me that those old slogans I’d heard in “the rooms” (12-step-program meetings) are just as applicable now. “One step at a time, day by day, act as if, take what you need and leave the rest.” In fact, they have become even more relevant. Back then I was so focussed on the eating disorder that I didn’t see much of the big life picture. Today I can see with a bit more clarity, though I still make no claims to understand it all. I do the best I can and trust in the universe for divine guidance. It’s worked pretty well this far.

As a teenager, it was my dream to recover and then tell my story. It has taken nearly 30 years, but I finally managed to do that. Last summer I published my book Diary of a Recovered Bulimic. I hope it will encourage people to seek help TODAY in order to embark upon their own special journey to recovery.

Two mottos to keep in mind:

The sooner the better!

Better late than never!

6 Comments Add your own

  • 1. SanityFound  |  April 26, 2008 at 2:32 pm

    Hey you, thanks for your comment on my blog. I will have to see if I can get your book here in SA would love to read it. As I said on my reply to your comment I think that you have done an amazing thing by sharing your story, takes courage. It will touch many hearts and hopefully show them that it is indeed possible.

    Love those mottos, they are mine as well 🙂

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  • 2. diaryofarecoveredbulimic  |  April 26, 2008 at 2:43 pm

    Thanks for your note! It never ceases to amaze me that I can get what I need just by opening up and reaching out – even if I’m not so sure what it is that I need. Today it was about feeling lonely, and suddenly the isolation mist is lifting and the sun is shining!

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  • 3. SanityFound  |  April 26, 2008 at 3:12 pm

    In a way it is as if your inner self guides you towards light when you need it most during dark days. There are many stars in the night sky we just have to reach out and find them 😀

    Glad the light is starting to shine, hold on to it for there is sanity in insanity

    That’s what I always say – there is sanity in insanity. But today, I needed to have someone else tell me that. Thanks!! – Martha

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  • 4. SanityFound  |  April 26, 2008 at 3:54 pm

    Thats what its all about, I’m glad and if you need a chat you have my email addie oks – the world is a better place when there are so many people in it, if that makes any sense 🙂

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  • 5. hsina  |  July 28, 2009 at 11:13 am

    It’s great that you recovered. Sometimes you just have to live with your mind set on positivity.

    There are many others just like you but however some choose not to change because they are afraid of the unknowing.

    For example. When you look in a magazine flipping through pages of one perfect model and celebrity to the next. You say to your self. I want to be just like them. It is unhealthy for anyone to force their body to change because they think that is what they should look like. But do change for the well being and health for your body. Not because you want to look a certain way.

    here’s my motto..

    “1…2….3… just breathe, move forward and never look back. Be strong”

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  • 6. diaryofarecoveredbulimic  |  July 28, 2009 at 12:43 pm

    Thanks for stopping by! Fear of the unknown has truly been the boulder on the path that made me think I couldn’t pass. But as is true with any road block, one can indeed go further on the other side.

    This morning I looked through old pictures, because I’d gotten together with old friends last night. I hadn’t seen them in nearly 15 years! There was an old picture from our youth (30 years ago) that I wanted to show them. I also saw a picture of me on the beach in a bikini at the age of 21. It is a beautiful slim young woman, yet I know she thought she was fat at the time. It is crazy! So much better to appreciate ourselves and our bodies as we are — and to take care of both!

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